Freedom Writers Diary Entry #151

Dear Diary, 

Each day of my life’s a battle. My life’s troubled with the frequent need to make decisions between the right thing and what would truly make me happy. 

Every time I go out, terror overcomes me – the terror that this would be another day of bad decisions. It’s a miracle if the day ends with my spirit still alive. I feel dead, thinking that all that I am capable of doing is making mistakes. I guess it’s hard to go out of what you’re already used to. 

This morning was smeared with ugly mistakes. I was supposed to meet a friend and I arrived super late. I also ended up being late for school; yet I sat in front to still make most of the movie. There I saw Miss G giving her all, squeezing all her creative juices, in the hopes of effecting change in these juvenile delinquents. 

It occurred to me. No effort to do good to others is ever futile. I now had my resolve – to do everything I could, just like Miss G, even if it means sacrificing a lot, challenging the limits of my creativity, counting trials and errors, and even fighting for this advocacy, just to effect change on the lives of my future clients. 

Every single day is a good day to spark transformation in another person’s life. 

After the PT138 Team opened my eyes to the reality presented in the Freedom Writers, my perspective changed. The pleasure in doing the right thing started growing within me. Now it won’t be too hard to make decisions. No matter how hard the decision will be, I am determined to always choose the right thing, for now I know that it is what would truly make me happy.